Hi everyone. Hope everyone is doing ok. Because I am not. As you probably noticed, I have not typed anything for this past month, and you all have the right to know why. Apologies in advance for the rambling since I have been holding in these feelings for a while.
As you already know, I suffer from anxiety and depression and this year has not made it any better. Lately, I’ve been starting to wonder whether or not my feelings matter to anyone. So, I’ve been keeping them to myself since I have come to the conclusion that my feelings are insignificant, especially during these times when everyone is going through so much worse than me.
I also have not been sleeping well lately. My anxiety loves to act up at night. Part of me was still in denial about the severity of the coronavirus and its impact of the world. Once reality finally hit me, it made my depression so much worse. I have some good days, but I have been having a lot of bad days lately.
So, I have stopped posting anything on this website since I felt like a hypocrite. How can I post anything about positive mental health when I’m experiencing the total opposite?
I have not told anyone about this, not even my friends and family, because as mentoned before, I know everyone else has their own problems, especially due to this pandemic, and my feelings are insignificant.
I’m going to take a step back from this website for a while. I don’t know when I’ll be back, but just know by reading this post why I haven’t and why I will not be posting any blogs.
Apologies for the ramble, but I needed to get these feelings out somehow. So, hopefully, I will see everyone next time.