I hate this feeling…

Hey everyone. As you may have noticed, I haven’t been posting anything for the past week, and you deserve an explanation why.

If you have read my ABOUT page, you may have saw that I suffer from depression and anxiety. I have to tell you that depression and anxiety sucks. I am so sick of dealing with it because it’s like this annoying voice in your head telling you that “You are worthless” and “You will never be able to experience happiness ever again” and you start to question yourself “Am I significant in this world?”

The answer is yes, you are significant in this world, yes you will find hapiness in your life, and no, you are not worthless. This past week, I was not feeling the best and it has gotten to the point where I don’t want to do anything, which is why I haven’t been posting in a while. And combined with every other work I had to deal with in my other classes affected my anxiety and I was having anxiety attacks, so I had to take a step back from posting.

But now I’m back and I am ready to start posting again. I’ve never discussed how I started suffering from depression and anxiety, but now I feel like it’s time to share.

It all started back in 2015 when I noticed that I was feeling sad and angry all the time and I had no idea why. To be honest, I didn’t know I suffered from depression and anxiety until earlier this year. Fast forward to 2017 to the first half of 2018 is when I was at my lowest. I started eating a lot of junk food to ease my pain and I gained a lot of weight. What made it worse is my father was less than supportive and I didn’t tell my mother because I didn’t want her to worry. In fact, I didn’t tell anyone until earlier this year. I realised that eating wasn’t going to help and I stopped eating junk food and I lost the weight.

As for the anxiety part, I started to have panic attacks towards the end of last year. I also was still feeling sad and angry and I had no idea why. Towards the end of January of this year, I looked up online of why I had those feelings and it was confirmed that I suffered  from depression and anxiety for 4 years without even knowing it.

I’ve had my happy moments and I’ve had my sad momets and when they hit me, they hit hard. The only person I’ve told briefly about this stigma is one of my friends whom I’ve met 2 years ago and he didn’t belittle me or put me down. He supported me and that was heart-warming for me to hear becuse I realised that I didn’t have to suffer in silence and there were people who will support you no matter what.

What I do to try to control this stigma is I like to go on walks. I realized that going on wlaks help take my mind off things and it really helps improve my mood. My diet is better which was easy since I’m a vegetarian, and if I am feeling down, I try to do better to express these feelings rather to keep them to myself becuse if you keep these feelings to yourself, the worse thing that can happen is suicide and I don’t want it to come to that.

To those people who are also suffering from depression and anxiety, just know that you are not alone and you don’t have to suffer in silence. Also know that you are loved and don’t let anyone tell you different. Thanks for reading and like I said before, I’m ready to start posting again, so I’ll see you in the next post.

GIPHY Project

Today on CT101, I learned how to create GIFs using Photoshop. First, I chose a photo and I used PhotoShop to alter it into different colors and filters.

Then, I collaborated these pictures together to create a GIF which you can see down below.

Finally, I uploaded the GIF to GIPHY which you can check out by clicking on the link. I recommend this for anyone who are skilled at creating GIFs or just anyone who likes to create GIFs. I’m still a beginner, but I think that this is fun. Thanks for reading and have fun creating GIFs!

First Day of CT101

When I first started this class, I was filled with anxiety because I didn’t know what I was up against. The truth is, I wasn’t ready to go back to school.

In fact, I was so anxious that I rarely slept on the night before.

My class started at 10:00 am. I had to wake up early in order to catch the bus.

Once class started, I had no idea what I was up against.

Once I heard that there was no exams at all in this class, my nerves started to ease a little bit.

Once he also explained that all work was done on the computer, that’s when my anxiety faded away.

Am I going to enjoy this class? The answer to that question is

Are Memes Art?

I believe that memes can be art because they are a way of expressing how you really feel, which art has done over the years. Therefore, memes are no different.

For example, here’s how I felt when I started this semester.

 

Here’s how I felt once Ryan explained what CT101 was about.

Now here’s a meme that I relate to.

I relate to this meme because this proves that no matter how difficult the road is or how many times you fall flat on your face, you will be able to accomplish your goals if you never give up.

Now I’ll leave it off with a meme of how I feel once I’m finished with my classes.

Good night everyone!

What Makes Me Happy

There are a lot of things that make me happy on the internet. However, two things that make me happy on the internet are video games and anime.

One of my favorite video game franchise is Sonic the Hedgehog. My first video game from this franchise is Sonic Heroes for PlayStation 2 15 years ago. Ever since then, I was completely hooked and I still am to this day. The reason why I love this franchise is because I love how fast-paced the games are and the story lines of each game.

 

My favorite character is Sonic because other than he is faster than the speed of sound, he is also very witty and cocky. He also never gives up on his friends no matter how difficult the situation is.

I also love anime. One of my favorite is Pokemon. I have watched it since childhood and I still love it to this day. The reason why I love it is because I love to watch the battles, the travelling, and where the characters will end up next. On the subject of Pokemon, this is also my second favorite video game franchise because I love to care for, battle, and train the Pokemon that I own.

What makes me happy on the internet is a YouTuber named Rachel Ballinger. The reason why she makes me happy is because not only that she makes me laugh, especially when I’m having a bad day, but every time I watch her main channel or her vlog channel, I feel like I can relate to her as her personality matches mine.

2019 (Year of the Movie Closures)

Hi everyone. Today, I want to give a brief review of the 3 movies that I have seen this year. I barely cry in movies, but even though I hate to admit this, this year really destroyed me because these 3 movies ended the separate film series altogether.

First, How to Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World.

This movie has ended the Dragons film series and I’m not going to give any spoilers to what happened in the movie, but towards the end is where I broke down because I watched the film series since the first one has been released 9 years ago and even though this film is the final movie, I feel like this was the proper way to end it. Again, I’m not going to spoil what happened, so you’ll have to see for yourself when you buy the movie on Blu-ray, DVD, or streaming.

The next movie is Avengers Endgame.

This movie has ended the Infinity War saga and the Avengers saga in general. I’m not going to give away any spoilers if you haven’t seen it, but I feel like this movie had the proper closure to the Marvel characters we all have come to watch and love. If you are a huge fan of Marvel, superhero films, or just like action films, then I suggest you watch this film. Avengers Endgame is out now on Blu-ray, DVD, and available for streaming.

The last movie that I already talked about on my first post is Toy Story 4.

Out of all the movies, this one got me the most because I grew up with the characters and the first Toy Story was the first animated film I have ever watched. So for me to say goodbye to these characters has been rough. However, I feel like this film is the proper conclusion to the entire film series. Toy Story 4 is out now on Blu-ray, DVD, and available for streaming.

2019 was the year where these 3 movies from the most popular film series that I have watched have emotionally satisfying conclusions. If you haven’t seen these movies yet, I highly suggest that you do. They are out in stores now and available for streaming. Thank you for reading and I will see you next time!

Welcome Back (Longest Blog Post Ever)

Hi everyone. Today, I want to talk about a YouTuber that I have recently discovered and I think all of you should take a look. His name is Charles Trippy.

Charles Trippy is an internet personality and vlogger. Trippy became known due to his YouTube channels CharlesTrippy and CTFxC (Now called Charles and Allie). He is also the bassist for American Rock band We The Kings. Charles ha vlogged his life for over 10 years and he has been on Guinness World Records because of that. However, it didn’t come without challenges.

On February 24, 2012, Charles has been diagnosed with a brain tumor. Because of that, he had to undergo two surgeries to remove it: One on March 6, 2012 and the other on September 17, 2013. The surgeries were a success; however, he had to go through Chemotherapy in order to prevent the tumor from growing back. He has also went through numerous seizures because of that.

Another obstacle he had to overcome is his divorce with his former spouse Alli Speed and the hate he received due to rumors about him cheating. I have watched his YouTube channel for almost a year and I really find it hard to believe that he cheated on his former spouse because he doesn’t  seem like the guy who would ever cheat on anyone.

Now, to discuss the positive results in his life. He met and married a new woman named Allie Marie Wesenberg-Trippy and she is the best thing that could have ever happend to Charles. They have 5 animals named Zoey, Marley, Diesel, Rica, and Luna. He stopped having seizures and he was allowed to drive again. On January 10, 2019, both Charles and Allie have announced they are having a baby, which was later revealed to be a baby girl. Because of that, he revealed that he was going to stop daily vlogging consecutively due to him wanting to spend time with his baby girl. On May 1, 2019, he broke his streak of daily vlogging consecutively and sometime later, he has uploaded a montage of 1 second of his life for 10 years. Now, they upload Monday through Friday and not on the weekends. On July 11, 2019, their baby daughter was born and her name is Remi Sol Trippy.

The reason why I think you should check out this channel is because Charles Trippy is one of the most sweetest and humblest YouTuber I have ever seen. This man has truly been through hell, but he has managed to find positivity in his life. He has a new wife that is like the female version of him and now he has a baby girl. He is not the YouTuber that will fake any of his actions. What you see is what you get. If he is feeling low, than he will show you low. If he is feeling happy, than he will show you happy. The point is, if you are the type of person who like seeing YouTubers for their realism, than his channel is right for you.

This is the longest blog post I have ever posted, so thank you for reading. Make sure you watch and subscribe to Charles and Allie’s YouTube channel and show them some love. Hope you enjoy this long blog post and see you next time!

Rest in Peace

Hi everyone. Today, I want to pay respect to a veteran comedian I’m sure you all know. His name is John Witherspoon.

We all know him from the Friday film series, The Wayans Bros, The Boondocks, and more. He died at the age of 77 on October 29, 2019. I found out about his death yesterday. At first, I thought it was a hoax, but as I kept reading, I realized that it was true.

I’m still sad about it, but at least that I got to know one of the funny comedians like John Witherspoon. I want everyone who is reading this article right now to comment down below the first film where you saw him. Mine was on The Boondocks where he played Huey and Riley’s grandfather.

Rest in Peace, John Witherspoon, and thanks for giving the world your laughter.

Second Post

Welcome back to my website, everyone! I hope you are having or have had a good day today. Today, I am going to talk about something that was blowing up social media last month. This is about a certain someone that you all know from a popular anime called “Pokemon.”

That’s right, ladies and gentlemen. Ash Ketchum has won a Pokemon League! If you guys didn’t know, last month, Ash competed in the Alola League and he won the whole league after he defeated Gladion in the final round.

After his controversial loss in the Kalos league 3 years ago, I didn’t think that Ash would win the Alola League. However, I’m proud to say that I was proven wrong. Now Ash is the champion of the Orange League, Kanto Battle Frontier, and the Alola League.

But wait! This kid is not finished surprising us! During his exhibition match against Professor Kukui, Tapu Koko suddenly appeared as his final Pokemon. It was a battle to the finish between Pikachu and Tapu Koko as their unfinished battle concluded this past Sunday. Before you read the next paragraph, do you think that Pikachu or Tapu Koko won the battle?

If you guessed that Pikachu won the battle, you were right! Pikachu won the battle and the exhibition match for Ash. The only question is now that the Sun and Moon series is wrapping up pretty soon and the Sword and Shield series is premiering next month, will Ash win or lose the next Pokemon league? We’ll see. That’s it for now. Thanks for reading everyone! See you next time for another Post!

My First Post

This is my first post on my website. As I mentioned on my about post, you can expect me to talk about my favorite movies, TV shows, and video games. In this post, I am going to talk about a movie I have seen recently that’s called “Toy Story 4.” 

The Toy Story film series is the one I grew up with and the last one I saw was the third film, which came out 9 years ago. And last year, I heard that Disney/Pixar was making a fourth film that was released in theaters this past summer. I’ll admit, at first, I was skeptical about the movie because I thought the film series was wrapped up in the previous film and when I heard they were creating a fourth film, I had a mixed reaction because I thought that Disney/Pixar was milking the film series for cash and profit. When I finally saw the movie, my opinion of it changed from mixed to positive.

I am not going to give away any spoilers if you have not seen the movie, but I will say that the fourth film is better than the third. The reason I say that is because this film had a lot more emotion than the previous film, the animation was beautiful, your favorite characters are back including some new and returning characters, and I feel like this film was a proper conclusion to not just the characters we knew and fell in love with over the years, but it was a proper conclusion to the film series as whole. If you haven’t seen the movie yet, I suggest you go see it when you get the chance. “Toy Story 4” is out now on Blu-ray, DVD, and Digital HD for streaming. Thanks for reading!